Friday, August 17, 2012

"Your daughter is hurting for you"

"Your daughter is hurting for you." The words struck my heart as if an audible voice in the room had spoken them to me. I had just been telling my mom a few days before of my heart to adopt older children. I had never stopped to think previous to these words God had just breathed into my ear that my children may very well have already taken their first breath. 

In my previous post I talked about sacrificial love. A huge part of the reason why sacrificial love is healing is because of the person's willingness in their sacrifice not only to love the person when it isn't easy, but to also enter into their pain with them. It is saying, "I WANT to feel and experience your pain because I don't want you to go through this alone." If we dare to enter into someone's pain with them, God never fails to reveal the path to healing whether the road is short or long. Through the pain we are moved to a place of intercession. My daughter is a living example of this concept to me every day. Loving her has caused me much pain and heartache. I worry about her and cry over her and worst of all, know absolutely nothing about where she is or if she’s okay or not. I don’t know if she is safe, or if she’s healthy. I don’t know if she is loved by the people around her, I don’t know if she has a family yet. I would cross an ocean for her, I would give up my life for her, I would do anything in my power to ensure that she hurt less. She is my daughter; a piece of my heart belongs to her that I will never retrieve. Yet it is a joy to bear the brunt of this pain because it means that my prayers barrage heaven more often than they would if God had not given her to me. He entrusted me with a very important job. Although I am unable to care for her, unable to kiss her good night or snuggle with her and tell her how much I love her, how much her heavenly father loves her, I know that the prayers placed in my heart for her are that of a mother’s. And though I cannot see any fruit coming from the place of prayer I find myself in for her daily, I understand that He honors the steadfast heart. 

Maybe those words that God spoke to me shouldn't have shocked me so much. I already have a daughter that I am constantly hurting and praying over. But that is the beauty of God's heart. He moves in our hearts in ways that we never would have imagined because we assumed we already understood them. I have never physically given birth to a child, but the children he is preparing me for, (and has already given to me) He is asking me to pray for. Prayer may seem like such a small and insignificant part of life. It may seem like the prayers we pray often go unanswered. It is so frustrating to be human; to be too small to see the entire beautiful tapestry God weaves together with our lives every day. But I know that even when things seem to never change, prayers seem to go unanswered, there is ALWAYS something going on that we are currently unable to see because as children of God we were given the power through our prayers to shift paradigms and break strongholds we are unaware of.  I look forward to the day when I can look back on my life and see the many different ways in which God was using intercession to bring about changes we didn't even know about during our time on Earth. 

Ask the Lord to show you today what areas He desires for you to pour yourself out in prayer. 



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